So I tried hard to get myself out of my funk today. I don't want to be a Debbie Downer...and nobody wants to read a blog by a Debbie Downer...so how about just buck up. Ok.
I cleaned, did 2 loads of laundry, vacuumed, worked on my blog, moved around some retirement investments, marked some things for the rummage sale and mowed the lawn. So then I felt productive...but not really any perkier.
Decided to go for a run. How can you feel bad when you finish a run? I can't. So unless I ate it on a curb and fell or something it would be a good fix. Normally when I run I listen to music, but today I didn't. When I was working on my blog I had been marathon watching "Who the f#*! did I marry" on Netflix (ironic I know). When I was running I thought "Wow look..you didn't marry a murderer, a rapist, a pedophile, a criminal, a wife beater..etc." Weird to think like that but for whatever reason it made me feel "Hey things could be worse...all those people are ok now. They had horrible things happen to them and they dealt with them, they survived, they are happy again." And then I thought I didn't marry any of those things, I married a liar, a cheater, and an alcoholic. And the I got MAD. But I was running...so what can you do? You just keep running....so that's what I did....got home. Stopped my running watch. PR by 3:44!!!!!! I took almost 4 minutes off of my best time of running a 3.5 mile loop. WHAT! Apparently I run amazing when I am pissed! LOL I was so happy with my awesome run! And then I puked. LOL Maybe overdid it...but it felt great. So there. I made myself happy.
Disclaimer - Not trying to throw DH under the bus here and make it sound like everything was his fault. I am not perfect in any form of the word...that was just how I was feeling while I was running.
Looking at things in perspective (kinda) and channeling agression
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That was rough....but needed. Thanks Another Reader.
And thanks creditcardfree and frugalredhead. I am hoping now that warm weather is finally coming around I can continue to channel my anxst with running.
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