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Looking at things in perspective (kinda) and channeling agression

May 17th, 2014 at 06:38 pm

So I tried hard to get myself out of my funk today. I don't want to be a Debbie Downer...and nobody wants to read a blog by a Debbie Downer...so how about just buck up. Ok.

I cleaned, did 2 loads of laundry, vacuumed, worked on my blog, moved around some retirement investments, marked some things for the rummage sale and mowed the lawn. So then I felt productive...but not really any perkier.

Decided to go for a run. How can you feel bad when you finish a run? I can't. So unless I ate it on a curb and fell or something it would be a good fix. Normally when I run I listen to music, but today I didn't. When I was working on my blog I had been marathon watching "Who the f#*! did I marry" on Netflix (ironic I know). When I was running I thought "Wow look..you didn't marry a murderer, a rapist, a pedophile, a criminal, a wife beater..etc." Weird to think like that but for whatever reason it made me feel "Hey things could be worse...all those people are ok now. They had horrible things happen to them and they dealt with them, they survived, they are happy again." And then I thought I didn't marry any of those things, I married a liar, a cheater, and an alcoholic. And the I got MAD. But I was running...so what can you do? You just keep running....so that's what I did....got home. Stopped my running watch. PR by 3:44!!!!!! I took almost 4 minutes off of my best time of running a 3.5 mile loop. WHAT! Apparently I run amazing when I am pissed! LOL I was so happy with my awesome run! And then I puked. LOL Maybe overdid it...but it felt great. So there. I made myself happy.

Disclaimer - Not trying to throw DH under the bus here and make it sound like everything was his fault. I am not perfect in any form of the word...that was just how I was feeling while I was running.

5 Responses to “Looking at things in perspective (kinda) and channeling agression”

  1. creditcardfree Says:

    You WILL survive this regardless of the outcome. That is a very positive thought that you need to remember and keep in mind over and over. Great job on your new PR on your run! Keep running. Smile

  2. frugalredhead Says:

    I have my best runs when I am pissed or stressed Smile Good for you for taking it out by running instead of eating donuts! It's always good to keep things in perspective, although it's perfectly okay to feel like you have it shitty too. But yes, there are always people who have it worse.

  3. Another Reader Says:

    If you married "a liar, a cheater and an alcoholic," you are very lucky to get out of the marriage now. You are much better off even though you don't yet see things that way. You deserve better. Surround yourself with people that want the best for YOU and keep doing the things that make you happy.

  4. Banker Gurl Says:

    "If you married "a liar, a cheater and an alcoholic," you are very lucky to get out of the marriage now."

    That was rough....but needed. Thanks Another Reader.

    And thanks creditcardfree and frugalredhead. I am hoping now that warm weather is finally coming around I can continue to channel my anxst with running.

  5. Another Reader Says:

    That's how YOU described him. Lucky and SMART to do what's best for you.

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