Here is our peanut! 3 months old now!

Well our Renter in Rental #2 moved out at the end of July as scheduled. Since we knew they were moving out we started looking for a renter early, and signed a lease with a new young couple mid-June, which would start August 1st. They were able to move in a few days early since the last renter had already left and had done an excellent job with cleaning etc.

On August 3rd, the GF called my husband and said they had broken up....apparently she found out that he had been cheating on her for a few months now....UGH. They have two kids under the age of 3.

So after a lot of back and forth over who would stay and who would go....they are both moving out now...after only living there for 3 days.

I posted the house for rent again and luckily we got a lot of interest and should be having a new lease signed tomorrow for new renters to move in as of Sept 1st. If all goes well we won't be out anything and will also be able to return the full deposit as I do feel awful for the GF being in this situation with those 2 littles. Hoping to have the new renters be in there for a few years at least.

Yes you read that correctly! MO and I welcomed a beautiful and healthy baby girl a few weeks ago! Those of you that have been here for the last few years (I think that is most of us) know that we lost our twins in 2018 and it's been a very long and hard journey to get baby girl here (13 years, but whose counting...lol). We are so happy and blessed to have her!

We named her Hope. After losing the twins, and everything that is going on in the world now we felt it was perfect for her. We call her Hopie, Hopester and Hopeapottamus..lol.

I am on maternity leave/parental leave till just after the 4th of July holiday. I am soaking up every second with my wonderful little honey!

Holy Smokes! That's over $1000 more then last years total! The Scheels Cards and Visa Cards MO is saving for a new gun, he was saving them for that last year as well, but ended up buying a new softball bat instead so he is starting over on saving up.

Should use some Chili's cards next week, and then Landry's and Outback Steakhouse in January when we are on vacation.

I like having a nice GC balance for when we are trying to save money, but would be happy with between $500-$1000, definitely don't need this much so we will work on using them up.

Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $50.00
Applebees $50.00
Chili's $25.00
Chili's $25.00
Chili’s $50.00
Cracker Barrel $10.00
Discover Cashback Rewards $1537.71
Hobby Lobby $25.00
JCPenney $9.24
Jimmy Johns $35.00
Kohls $25.00
Landry’s Restaurants $25.00
Massage $50.00
McDonalds $100.00
McDonalds $100.00
McDonalds - Free Weekly Sandwich Card
Medora $100.00
Medora $1000.00
Menards $50.00
Olive Garden $10.00
Olive Garden $10.00
Olive Garden $10.00
Outback Steakhouse $25.00
Outback Steakhouse $50.00
Papa Johns $10.00
Papa Johns $10.00
Pizza Ranch $12.00
Red Lobster $50.00
Ruby Tuesdays $15.00
Ruby Tuesdays $25.00
Scheels $15.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $50.00
Scheels $50.00
Scheels $200.00
Target $5.00
Target $21.31
Texas Roadhouse $25.00
Texas Roadhouse $50.00
Texas Roadhouse $50.00
Texas Roadhouse $50.00
Texas Roadhouse $50.00
Texas Roadhouse $50.00
Texas Roadhouse - Free Daily App Card
TGIFridays $25.00
Visa $25.00
Visa $100.00
Visa $150.00
Total $4585.26

Looks like pics in my old entries are not coming up, and I am not able to add pics to my new entries. Anyone else? Do we know if this has been reported?

Thank you!

The twins 1st birthday is this week so MO and I are just trying to survive. It's been awful leading up and we are both totally mentally, emotionally and physically exhausted.

I took the day off of work, and the day after as well to give myself a long weekend. I wasn't sure if I should as I will probably need distractions that day, but I think I have plenty of house work and FB Sales stuff to work on to keep me busy. Plus this way if I just want to go take a nap or just go sit and cry I can.

I just miss my babies so much.

Well my Malibu finally died. It was a 2002 so it's definitely had a long life! I got it in 2008 for $4000 and it made it to 230,383 miles and over 11 years!!



We don't have anywhere to scrap it close to use, but MO was able to take it to the dump for free.

We took the license plates, CD player and battery. We were able to move the battery into MO's old 1997 Cavalier and we will now drive that as our commute car until it dies. Our other two vehicles are our old truck and our new truck, and with being an hr away from town we definitely need a car for mileage/fuel costs.

When I try to use the search function on my blog it is not working. Anyone else having this issue or know of a fix?

Thank you!

I am getting around 5 SPAM comments everyday!! Anyone else having this issue or know how to stop it?

They are going back and commenting on my entries from years ago...so weird.

MO has been dealing with a "Man Cold" for a week or so and I was doing my best to avoid it.....but it found me. I've had symptoms for a few days but yesterday was the first day I started really feeling sick. I never sleep well since we lost the babies and the night before I was laying there till 5am..UGH! So last night I took a sleeping pill so I could get some rest and fight this cold. So I fall asleep pretty quickly, but wake up with terrible stomach cramps and lucky me I have food poisoning! Thankfully I was able to make it to the garbage can, I haven't thrown up since morning sickness and that is one thing I don't miss!! I took a shower, brushed my teeth and went back to bed. I think what made me sick was I had a few pieces of Fontina Cheese as a snack before bed. I normally use it in cooked dishes, like brussel sprouts, but just thought I would slice off a few pieces and eat it with some sandwich meat as a small snack. If you've never had Fontina, it is a soft cheese, like Blue Cheese. So that is my best bet as to what made me sick. Feeling better from that today, but cold symptoms are still here and I need to get better because we go to Laughlin for vaca in 6 days!! At least hubby is on the mend now so that's good that one of us can take care of the other...lol.

Wow our giftcard balance is crazy! We used several since last year and still the total went up $600 since last January. I really want to get some of these used up, I hate to think of losing any from getting lost, stolen or destroyed. I do have them all together for safe keeping.

I have a day off next week to have a bunch of apts, including a massage so that will use a $60 massage giftcard. I also plan on going shopping that day in between my apts and possibly using up the JCP, Target and Kohls cards, as well as picking up dinner somewhere that we have a giftcard for.

The Visa cards expire in June, we had planned to use those for car seats for the twins. Now we are going to use those to pay the deductible for the truck repair, and maybe also for our rental car when we go to Laughlin in March.

The Scheels cards are MO's and he has been saving those up to get a new gun.

Anheuser-Busch Rebate Card $15.00
Applebees $2.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Applebees $25.00
Buffalo Wild Wings $25.00
Buffalo Wild Wings $25.00
Buffalo Wild Wings $25.00
Chili’s $50.00
Cracker Barrel $10.00
Discover Cashback Rewards $963.13
Famous Dave’s $30.00
Hobby Lobby $25.00
JCPenney $9.24
Jimmy Johns $30.00
Kohls $25.00
Landry’s Restaurants $32.00
Massage $50.00
Massage $60.00
Medora $100.00
Medora $1000.00
Olive Garden $10.00
Olive Garden $10.00
Olive Garden $10.00
Outback Steakhouse $25.00
Outback Steakhouse $50.00
Papa Johns $10.00
Papa Johns $10.00
Pizza Ranch $12.00
Scheels $5.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $25.00
Scheels $75.00
Seize the Deal (Doggie Daycare) $75.00
Starbucks $10.00
Target $5.00
Texas Roadhouse $25.00
Texas Roadhouse $50.00
TGIFridays $25.00
Visa $25.00
Visa $100.00
Visa $100.00
Visa $100.00
Total $3558.37

Today is two weeks since I delivered our twins. It feels like minutes ago, and also an eternity ago.

Both MO and I are doing our best to stay busy and stay positive. It can be a struggle every second... and then I find a few hrs here and there of calm. I wish so hard I could find a way to keep being "ok". When I find those small breaks where I feel "ok" it feels so wonderful to not feel completely destroyed.

We had my postpartum visit a few days ago. No answers as to why I went into pre-mature labor as the pregnancy was 100% healthy up till then, and I had just had a regular OB apt 10 days prior to going into labor, and there were no issues or red flags at all.
So I am very scared that if I am ever lucky enough to get pregnant again, that the same thing could happen, since they don't know the cause, therefore no way to help prevent.

I have a few family and friends who have been making sure I am still breathing. My Mom, my BF and MO have been awesome. MO especially, he is obviously dealing with his own loss and grief with this, but he still holds me up everyday, and his goal is to get me to laugh and smile at least once a day, which he has accomplished each day...which in itself is a miracle.
I am so incredibly lucky to have him, and that really does keep me going through each terrible minute.

Also my two dogs have been an enormous help. They know mama is so sad (and some part of me thinks that they miss and mourn the babies too) and they comfort me every chance they get with cuddles and kisses. Dogs are simply amazing.

Thank you to everyone for the thoughts and prayers. We are doing our best to continue on for our babies and be the kind of parents they would be proud of. One day and one step at a time.

I’m so so sad to share this news, but as you all know, after many years of waiting my husband and I were expecting twins. We now have two angel babies watching over us.

💗Ember Lynne 👼
💙Bridger John 👼

At 21 weeks I unexpectedly went into labor and was hospitalized. They were able to stop my labor and put me on 100% inverted bedrest. We did everything we could possibly do to keep our sweet babies safe in my tummy. After 11 days of hospitalization, constant monitoring and full bedrest, I went into labor again at 22 weeks and 5 days and they weren’t able to stop it this time.
We lost both of our babies. 💔 Bridger’s heart rate was lost sometime in the night, he is very handsome and was our first sweet angel. Ember was born and we got to hear her cry, she was taken to the NICU and she fought hard for about 4hrs before they took her off the ventilator because there was nothing more they could do for her. We got to hold her as she passed and our baby girl princess was our second angel. I lost a lot of blood after I delivered them and became unresponsive so they had to take me to the OR and do a blood transfusion. My husband stayed with Ember while I was in the OR and she even grabbed his finger. They were both little fighters from the start. We are obviously completely heartbroken. The outpouring of love and support from friends and family has been overwhelming and so appreciated. They are missed and loved more then they will ever know.
💗💙💗💙💗💙💗💙💗💙💗
💗Ember Lynne 👼
💙Bridger John 👼

My husband stayed with me in my room every single night, I dont know what I would do without my wonderful husband being my rock through all of this and making sure I knew he was always there no matter what I needed and how lost I was/am feeling.